My Heavenly Father sees me and knows about this

Thank you Lord. You have seen and you know.
Forgive me.
I can accept what comes as a gift – a failure – or a lesson.
The Lord Knows.
God be in me and in it.
Let this bitter and sweet time be in your control.
May the decisions made “good” or “bad” all draw closer to you.
May I be driven by you and not by the power of my humanity, my fears or insecurities.
Lord I miss the river of your love that refreshes as it flows.
As I wander this desert, thirsty and confused, help me see you, the stark beauty and the seeds of the harvest.
How sweet the river will be.